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May. 2nd, 2004 12:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
slipstreamsurfrI finished Dan Brown's "Digital Fortress" this morning. It's a good book if you like quasi gov agency/mystery/thriller type books... The code hook was good though. The code he placed on the last page of the book was inspired. And yes, he did give you a hint on how to solve it in the book.
So, time to decide, start the next Dan Brown book "Angels & Demons" or go for Kelly Armstrong's "Bitten"... One, dealing with the Vatican, the other a werewolf.... hrmmmmmm......
In other thoughts this morning... Still dealing with my own demons. I have to question the motivation behind the choices I seem to want to make. It seems that I often want the path less traveled. The path that is just beyond my reach and because of that, I begin to feel depressed and anguished about why I can not do what I want to. Why don't I deserve to follow my chosen path....
Sometimes though, when you get the ONE thing you want more than anything else there is a letdown, a crash of feeling, an emptyness and you are left wondering why you wanted it so bad in the first place. I fear this.
Now most people grow out of this sometime in their teens. I'm in my late 30's now and there is no end in site.
But again, sometimes, the path less traveled, the path with the densest darkest forest, the path that feels it is just beyond your reach, holds the answer. The light, the feeling, the clarity, the answer, the happiness that you seek.
So, how do you know if what you feel/see on the path ahead of you is the true path. The one that will in the end, reveal itself as the grail that you seek.
hrmmm..
Demon...
One day I will banish thee.
Or at the very least, put thee at bay a while.
So, time to decide, start the next Dan Brown book "Angels & Demons" or go for Kelly Armstrong's "Bitten"... One, dealing with the Vatican, the other a werewolf.... hrmmmmmm......
In other thoughts this morning... Still dealing with my own demons. I have to question the motivation behind the choices I seem to want to make. It seems that I often want the path less traveled. The path that is just beyond my reach and because of that, I begin to feel depressed and anguished about why I can not do what I want to. Why don't I deserve to follow my chosen path....
Sometimes though, when you get the ONE thing you want more than anything else there is a letdown, a crash of feeling, an emptyness and you are left wondering why you wanted it so bad in the first place. I fear this.
Now most people grow out of this sometime in their teens. I'm in my late 30's now and there is no end in site.
But again, sometimes, the path less traveled, the path with the densest darkest forest, the path that feels it is just beyond your reach, holds the answer. The light, the feeling, the clarity, the answer, the happiness that you seek.
So, how do you know if what you feel/see on the path ahead of you is the true path. The one that will in the end, reveal itself as the grail that you seek.
hrmmm..
Demon...
One day I will banish thee.
Or at the very least, put thee at bay a while.
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Rose colored glasses
Date: 2004-06-24 08:03 pm (UTC)Yet, I believe it and I've yet to be proven wrong.
I know that you've got some things many people never have the good fortune to have -- a loving spouse and good marriage, friends who care (waving), a good dose of innate intelligence and common sense, many talents -- but most of all, did I mention a good marriage and loving spouse? :) Do you know how rare that is, and how lucky it makes those of us in good relationships? I know I feel lucky about that, when I think about it.
But I think the biggest thing is really, make a choice and go for it. Banish the doubts and self-questioning after you've made a decision as much as you can and don't play what-if head games with yourself. In the end, it really does all work out. But then, you know I am an incurable optimistic Pollyanna, right? :)