Thanks for the post Nigel. Anxiety leading to depression that leads back to more anxiety leading back to deeper and deeper depression. It's a viscious cycle that is self feeding.
It's also one that's hard to break.
That being said, sometimes the best thing to do is step back a while and look at things. To drop the self-made enclosing mantel of guilt and allow yourself the option of free will and the oppertunity to look towards the future. What is in the past is past and can't be changed. Perhaps you can learn from your past mistakes, but don't let yourself be paralyzed with the indecision and the fear of maybe making mistakes again.
I've thought a lot about the "why" of the path less traveled in the darkest part of the forest. "Why" don't others seem to have the same problem as I do. As was pointed out by someone very dear to me, some people experiance the blinding light of their chosen path early on and only see the one "right" path for them. Others never see a path beyond the mundanity of everyday life, perhaps not always happy to work their daily socially acceptiable/expected job, but relativly content and left in an unknowing state about the possibilities of the their future paths.
So perhaps having these kinds of choices to make on the paths of life are a form of a curse. We are individuals that exist in a self formed prison of doubt. Not knowing for sure if the path we choose is the correct one while those around us all appear content with their lot in life.
But then again, perhaps it is a blessing. By having the clarity of insite into our own being, we realize we have a choice. This may put us a step above the average Joe in at least the knowledge that we have some small choice in our path. We know that we have free will, the ability to create a future that is of our own design. We dare to dream.
Congrats on your first two novels, unpulished though they may be currently. It shows dedication to your craft and I'm sure the third one will be completed in due time. Perhaps this one will catch the eye of a publisher. I wish you luck. I guess the best we can do is try to make time for those things that we identify over time as being "important" in life. It sounds like you've got a good start on that.
Not knowing where you are in Texas but knowing your intest in Anime, are you perhaps attending Akon in June?
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It's also one that's hard to break.
That being said, sometimes the best thing to do is step back a while and look at things. To drop the self-made enclosing mantel of guilt and allow yourself the option of free will and the oppertunity to look towards the future. What is in the past is past and can't be changed. Perhaps you can learn from your past mistakes, but don't let yourself be paralyzed with the indecision and the fear of maybe making mistakes again.
I've thought a lot about the "why" of the path less traveled in the darkest part of the forest. "Why" don't others seem to have the same problem as I do. As was pointed out by someone very dear to me, some people experiance the blinding light of their chosen path early on and only see the one "right" path for them. Others never see a path beyond the mundanity of everyday life, perhaps not always happy to work their daily socially acceptiable/expected job, but relativly content and left in an unknowing state about the possibilities of the their future paths.
So perhaps having these kinds of choices to make on the paths of life are a form of a curse. We are individuals that exist in a self formed prison of doubt. Not knowing for sure if the path we choose is the correct one while those around us all appear content with their lot in life.
But then again, perhaps it is a blessing. By having the clarity of insite into our own being, we realize we have a choice. This may put us a step above the average Joe in at least the knowledge that we have some small choice in our path. We know that we have free will, the ability to create a future that is of our own design. We dare to dream.
Congrats on your first two novels, unpulished though they may be currently. It shows dedication to your craft and I'm sure the third one will be completed in due time. Perhaps this one will catch the eye of a publisher. I wish you luck. I guess the best we can do is try to make time for those things that we identify over time as being "important" in life. It sounds like you've got a good start on that.
Not knowing where you are in Texas but knowing your intest in Anime, are you perhaps attending Akon in June?