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So, I should not whine about work. IT works is just the pits, it doesn't matter where you work, doing network/pc support just is the pits. (yes, a bad day, and probably a bad day tomorrow too but we'll just let that one lie there awhile)

In other news I find myself wavering again on what I want to be when I grow up. Or rather, what I want to be and still not quite grow up. ;) It seems that much of my life has been made up of indecision. I think that many paths I end up taking are followed because I have dithered so much that other "opportunities" close themselves off. I waste so very much effort and energy with this pendulum swing of emotion/intensity and hope/hopelessness about my greater purpose in life.

I'm trying to figure out what will make me happy. I admit that I have a problem with looking at things objectively. I tend to always color my thoughts and viewpoints with what I think I SHOULD be doing, what is the RESPONSIBLE thing to do. I will also admit that I tend to have a rose colored view of options and the world at time. I bit TOO optimistic.

The solution? So far, it's been to dither. I'm getting to old to dither this much. I'm wasting to much time.

It's time to be happy dang it. I deserve to be happy. So I need to stop dithering and stick with something.